Hey guys than soo much for liking Biya nd commenting on Tamana
as i decided it suppose to be last Update from my side for BIYA
but My editor decided to make it bit more interesting for you guys
so with this UD end of my mystry and JQ's work start
enjoy it guys π
Part-IV
"soul meets soul on
lover's lip
don't know how long mine have to wait.."
I was waiting for him,
my head was spinning badly so I tried to take some rest, which was
impossible
without convincing him. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep on rocking
chair,
as I closed my eyes, I can see the same office, My mind was imagining
weird things,
or I should say disgusting things,
She was in Avdhesh ji's
lap, in his arms; he was caressing her cheek gently,
"Don't worry Simple,
she have to leave us, I will not let her ruin our world" and his arms
went around
her waist, and he started kissing her all over assuring her to get rid
of me"
"No!" I woke up with
shock as it actually happened in front of my eyes.
"No I will not let it
happen" I assured myself again, how can I let him go he is my life even
his
silence is my life, now I was confirm that he don't love me at all but I
love
him, and he was the only person on whole earth for whom I can live or
die.
I spend whole night in
waiting but he didn't return, I was anxious to see him, from the day we
met I
never stay away from him for this longer, I never thought that life can
be so
painful without seeing him even for one day.
I asked Kaka about him or
his
call, as if he called and I missed, though I was awaked whole night. I
called
him many times but he didn't picked my call nor he cut anyone of it, I
was
getting worried now, as it was almost evening, more then 24hours I
didn't saw
him. I was feeling suffocated I need to breath if I want to live I had
to see
him,
"You may hate me
Avdhesh ji, but all I want is your happiness and wellbeing, Please God
bas sab
theek ho, unhe kuch naa hua ho" I prayed to my god for his well being
and was
about to step out of my room for Office when someone knocked at door.
"Yes, Kaka you don't
need to knock!"
"Ahuummm! Sorry but it's
me , not Kaka.." it was not kaka but some guy in black coat with some
papers in
his hand, I hesitated a bit, who was he, I never saw him before, and how
can he
came directly to someone's bedroom.
"Sorry, but I don't
know you, don't you think you should wait outside!" I didn't hide my
anger on
his act.
"Ahh' I am really very
sorry but I didn't realized we didn't met earlier, actually m not new to
this
house and I forget that you don't know me. I never asked for any thing
in this
house, Avdhesh never mind for that'by the way I am Ranvijay,"
He tried to cover up his
mistake. "Ranvijay" the name seems heard before, suddenly I realized I
heard it
from Kaka, he supposes to be Avdhesh ji's childhood friend.
"Aww I am sorry for my
behavior actually I was thinking something else and I didn't know you.."
I
tried to cover my condition by a fickle smile and gesture him to take
seat.
"it's Ok, actually
..(He took a long pause) you don't need to hide your disappointment, I
was out
of town for few months when you guys get married, just returned today
and what
Avdhesh asked me for , I am really shocked"
I was surprised at his
words what did he meant by don't need to hide my disappointment.
"I mean how can he just
spoil your life by marrying and divorcing you in just few months,( I
looked at
him with surprise, how can Avdhesh ji share this with him) ahh I didn't
mean to
hurt you, actually am a lawyer, he want
me to prepare these documents for him, for you both, he want it to be on
mutual
understanding, but as its only three months you guys have to stay
together for
few more months, don't worry I will make it possible by showing you guys
married for last one year. And you will get everything what you deserve
in
alimony, Man I can't believe mera friend itna neeche gir sakta hai."
I can't understand what
he wants to say, all I get was that he was accusing my Avdhesh ji for
spoiling
my life.
"Will you please stop
your nonsense," I shouted at him in anger, "you call yourself his
friend, but I
don't think so, how dare you to utter anything against him in front of
me, what
ever happening between us is our personal matter, if he asked you to..( I
can't
say it) do whatever he said, you don't need to worry about me, I am
nothing to
you."
He was amazed at my
words, he just placed few papers on table and hand a latter to me.
"I have prepared you divorce
papers, all you need to do is to sign it, Here Avdhesh want me to
deliver it to
you, he want me to stay and convince you for what he said but I think I
should
leave now." He said it with a down gaze and left the room.
All I can't believe was
that he was in so much hurry to get rid off me, that in a single day he
managed
to divorce papers. I can't dare to touch it, I unfold the latter he send
for
me.
"Arpita,
I know you must be wondering why I
am not coming home, but I don't think you need to think anything in this
regard. As I told you, I want Divorce Ranvijay will explain it all to
you,
And it's not that I
didn't think about you, it may sound rude but I talked to Ranvijay and
he is
agree with my proposal, he is a good guy he will marry you, and take
good care
of you.
I know I don't have any
right to decide your destiny but as I saw how childish you were in your
decisions like continuing the pregnancy. I thought It's my moral
responsibility
to suggest you a good name for your future companion.
I
don't have much to say, just sign the papers and trust me you will have
everything,
which you deserve. Let us live our lives as we want.
Avdhesh."
Those were his words,
how can he decide it all, how can he think that I can think about anyone
except
him. Did that mean he never felt anything for me, here I was dying of
imagining
him with someone else and he is sending a guy for his pregnant wife.
"Disgusting" that's
what came on my lips.
"I don't know anything
Avdhesh ji, Now you have to answer me" I determined and reached his
office.
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When I reached there it
was all most 9. Whole staff was gone as usual, except his beloved. Her
bag was
still on her table and she was not there, where else I could expect her,
with
him in his cabin.
"What! What are you
saying Avdhesh? How can you think that? You are just impossible'" Simple
was
shouting on him when I opened the door.
Room was all in dark; only light
source
in room was the moonlight from the window next to couch. She noticed me
and
left the room in hurry as I caught them first time huuh.
Avdhesh ji was sitting
in his chair, but I can't see his face but I can see that he was resting
his
head on back support.
"So you are hidden
here." I started without any care. After reading his latter how can I
control
myself?
"How can you do this to
me Avdhesh ji? Do you think am a doll or something which you can play
and pass
on to your friend? You just send these papers by that guy and thought I
will
sign them and let you go like this, for that woman, No I will not."
I was waiting for his
reply, or I should say I want his reply I want to break that silence
which was love
for me but actually It was distance for him,
"Be Practical Arpita!"
he replied as nothing has happened.
"Be practical! That's
all you want to explain for your deed, is it Avdhesh ji, You are sending
a guy
for me, want me to marry him, just because you want to marry someone
else and
don't want your name as the one who spoilt my life."
"yes" he replied in
just one word.
"really Avdhesh ji, do
you know what the meaning of marrying someone, I don't think so, ok let
me
explain it in your way, what is marriage for you,
Ok ..( It was like hell
to voice what I was about to say, but I did it) just close your eyes and
imagine
me in his arms, as I was in your's, all those nights, in last few
months. How
does it feel? Can you feel anything?" I said it with disgust to my own
self.
He just get up from his
chair and stand in front of his window showing me back, I thought it
worked and
he can't bear the thought.
"No!... I didn't felt
anything" that was his reply which broke me.
I can't be angry on
him, if he didn't felt bad of what I said, what I explained him, then it
mean
he never felt anything for me. One can feel bad for one only if he has
feelings
for that person and he said he didn't felt anything.
But what about me, I
felt bad to think him with someone else, I get close to him, I want to
see his
face, I want to feel his touch, I want to feel his love though I know it
was
always in my imaginations only. I want to live in that mirage.
I stand next to him he
turn his face to other side, as he didn't want to see me. His gesture
broke me
badly and I fell on my knees, in his feet.
"Please Avdhesh ji, Don't
leave me, I can't live without you." I was crying badly now, can't dare
to look
at him if he again turn face I can't bear it again.
"Please Avdhesh ji, Stay
with me, even if you don't love me, I love you, your are everything to
me..(my
sobs were chocking my voice but I had to say it all to him, I had to
convince
him at any cost, it might be my last chance) everything to me, Please
stay with
me. Ok if you want to marry that girl, go ahead I will not say a word. I
will
sign these papers with pleasure, but you have to promise me that you
will stay
with me. I don't care what world will call me, keep, second lady
whatever.. all I want is you. I will not
ask anything for me and my baby, I promise, I promise. If you go away
from me I
can't live I will die Avdhesh ji. I can't breathe when I think myself
without
you.."
I was crying and saying
all of my heart I didn't noticed when he turned to me and get on knees
in front
of me, all I can realized was his touch, His warm palm on my cheek, he
wiped my
tear and next second I was in his strong arms, his hand were on back of
my
neck, my words were stopped by his lips,
he kissed me lightly and then
he
kissed me again this time a bit more passionate, It was out of my
imagination I
took some time to understand what was happening but when I realized by
that time he had kissed me
a lot of times and now his hold was turning loose around my waist but
this time
when his lips touched mine I kissed him back and it was a different
feeling to
be kissed by one whom you always desired for. His kiss turn more
passionate and
his hold more firm, my arms went around his neck and start playing with
his
silky hairs.
Don't know how long we were like that on our knees, kissing
each
other, lost in each other, it was me who pushed him back as I realized
he need
me that time, but why? Out of love or again it was just need.
"Avdhesh
ji, you said you didn't felt anything for me, so what was this, was it
because your beloved denied to stay with you tonight" and my tears again
start rolling on my cheeks.
I said it but when I
looked at his face, it was shining in moonlight I can see his eyes;
those were red as he didn't slept from several nights or cried a lot.
Those were filled with some kind of fear as he feared to lose something
very special.
He set back on floor; again he wiped my
tear and said
"Arpita you should not cry like this,
you have to be strong."
"This world is not a good
place, and I can't be there with you always to protect you from evils of
this world. You need someone to protect you, Ranvijay is good guy I
know him since our childhood, you know he was so happy to know about
your pregnancy, .. he will take good care of our baby Arpita"
Tamanna hai tere daman me so jane ki
Simte rahen tere pehlu me tere,
Kuch yun ke khabar bhi na ho tujhe,
aur tujhme Fanaa ho jane ki
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Edited by joliefille - 12 years ago