Main..aur... :)

Di... Di hoke bhi kabhi Di nahin ban paayi... Hamesha meri Maa ban ke rahi.. Mujhe paala..bada kiya..meri parchaayi ban ke hamesha mere saath rahi... Har kadam har raah pe jab jab mere paer ladkhdaye, unhone sambhala mujhe..

Maa pehle bhi thi woh par ab toh Sahi maayne mein Maa ban gayi hai meri... I am actually out of words.. main pehle kehti thi ki bhale hi mujhe janam nahin diya par DI meri Maa hai..par ab toh main yeh proud se keh sakti hun ki mera punar janam hua hai aur woh janam mujhe meri Di ne diya hai...

Main sochti thi ki humara safar ab khatam hone wala hai.. kuch hi dino mein main sabse door..apni di se door chali jaungi baadlon mein...aur wahin se unhe dekhungi kyunki woh kehte hain na Dil hai k maanta nahin..aur mera Dil toh bilkul hi nahin maanta jab tak main Di ko dekh na lun... Dhadkan dekhi hai aapne kabhi apni?? Maine dekhi hai.. Di ki naak ke neeche jab woh honth smile karte hain na toh lagta hai ki meri saansein..meri dhadkan chal rahi hai...

Ek baar ke liye laga thi ki woh dhadkan ab tham jaayegi... di kabhi has nahin paayengi.. Naa chaah ke bhi main usi hasi ko barkraar rakhne mein naa kamyaab ho rahi thi... Par Di ne apni hasi ko khone nahin diya, meri dhadkano ko thamne nahin diya... But the reality behind all this was Painful.. Itni badi keemat chukaayi unhone meri dhadkano ki gaadi chalti rakhne ke liye... Chutki ko kho diya unhone?

Koi samajh nahi paaya unhe.. aur yahan tak ki Main bhi unhe samajh nahin paayi... Unke tyaag ko paap ka naam de diya maine.. Jab Di ne kaha ki "For a mother, her child comes first; then come the rest. " main samajh hi nahin paayi iss baat ko... Par aaj chutki ko khone ke baad bhi jab di ko muskuraate huye dekhti hun toh samajh aata hai woh unhone mere liye kaha tha...Kuch time ke liye bhool gayi thi..selfish ho gayi thi apni behan ke liye yeh soch ke ki woh apna bacha kho ke khush nahin rahengi... ek pal ke liye bhool gayi thi woh Maa hai meri bhi ..main bhi bacha hun unka... Mujhe kho ke khush kya woh toh zinda bhi nahin reh paayengi...

Main yahan apni importance nahin bata rahi aapko par yeh sachayi hai... Di aisi hi hai... Mannu naam ki beemari unhe bachpan mein hi lag gayi thi... Mere cancer ka toh ilaaj mil gaya par di ki iss beemari ka ilaaj nahin hai iss dunia ke kisi bhi kone mein...

Kaise bhool gayi thi ki Main aatma hun unki... main nahin rehti toh kya hota di ka?
Mera pyar di ke pyar ki barabri nahin kar sakta... kar sakta hota toh main tabhi unhe samajh jaati jab unhone chutki ki bajaye meri jaan bachane ka faisla liya tha...

Bhool gayi thi main Khud ka Di ke liye pyar tabhi unki feelings nahin samajh paayi...

Bhool gayi thi ki jaise meri dhadkane  Di ki wajah se chalti hai waise hi unki saanson ki wajah bhi Main hoon...

Bhool gayi thi jaise unhe dekhe bina mera din nahin chadhta waise hi mere bina unki raat raat hi rehti hai, kabhi subah mein nahin badalti...

Bhool gayi thi ki mera zinda rehna matlab unko Zindagi dena hai..

Bhool gayi thi ki meri Di apni Mannu ke liye jo kehti hai woh karke dikhaati hai...

Bhool gayi thi ki meri inhi aankhon se saamne unhone kaha tha ki Meri dor unke haath mein... aur mere liye woh Yamraaj se bhi lad sakti hain... Kar li na ladayi yamraaj ji se...or i should say Deal ki hai.. ek haath de ek haath le.. chutki de di aur mujhe wapis le liya... I am sure Yamraaj ji bhi meri pyari di ki pyari si baaton mein aa gaye honge aur mujhe de ke... uske baad chutki bhi wapis dene ka promise kar diya hoga:)

Kaun kehta hai Di ne bacha giraya hai?? Sab kehte hain.. Haina?? Par is this true? Main bhi yahi samajhti thi par no... Giraya is a wrong word...  giraya nahin Bachaya hai..woh bhi apne dono bachon ko... Main na hoti toh Di na khud reh paati aur phir chutki bhi na aa paati... Mujhe bacha ke unhone mere saath saath apni aur chutki ki bhi jaan bacha li... Aur yeh sab main ab samajh paa rahi hun..Kyun?? Kyunki meri antar-aatma badal chuki hai... Yeh naya jeevan hai...meri ragon ko Ganga maiya se bhi pavitra khoon daud raha hai..Meri Di ka.. jo itnaaa pure hai..itna positive hai..shayad isi wajah se main Di ko aur ache se samajh paa rahi hun...


Once I asked her - Aap meri bhagwan ho? aur aaj ke baad yeh sawaal is zubaan pe kabhi nahin aayega coz she has already proved it... She IS my god... God cant be everywhere thats why she made Maa.. and My Maa is My Di.. Meri Angel :)

amazing post...👏hats off to u 4 dis post...luved it...Edited by shine123 - 11 years ago

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This content was originally posted by: Neha.K.

main pehle kehti thi ki bhale hi mujhe janam nahin diya par DI meri Maa hai..par ab toh main yeh proud se keh sakti hun ki mera punar janam hua hai aur woh janam mujhe meri Di ne diya hai...

Unke tyaag ko paap ka naam de diya maine.. Jab Di ne kaha ki "For a mother, her child comes first; then come the rest. " main samajh hi nahin paayi iss baat ko... Par aaj chutki ko khone ke baad bhi jab di ko muskuraate huye dekhti hun toh samajh aata hai woh unhone mere liye kaha tha...Kuch time ke liye bhool gayi thi..selfish ho gayi thi apni behan ke liye yeh soch ke ki woh apna bacha kho ke khush nahin rahengi... ek pal ke liye bhool gayi thi woh Maa hai meri bhi ..main bhi bacha hun unka... Mujhe kho ke khush kya woh toh zinda bhi nahin reh paayengi...

Main yahan apni importance nahin bata rahi aapko par yeh sachayi hai... Di aisi hi hai... Mannu naam ki beemari unhe bachpan mein hi lag gayi thi... Mere cancer ka toh ilaaj mil gaya par di ki iss beemari ka ilaaj nahin hai iss dunia ke kisi bhi kone mein...

Kaise bhool gayi thi ki Main aatma hun unki... main nahin rehti toh kya hota di ka?

Bhool gayi thi ki jaise meri dhadkane  Di ki wajah se chalti hai waise hi unki saanson ki wajah bhi Main hoon...

Bhool gayi thi jaise unhe dekhe bina mera din nahin chadhta waise hi mere bina unki raat raat hi rehti hai, kabhi subah mein nahin badalti...

Bhool gayi thi ki mera zinda rehna matlab unko Zindagi dena hai..

Bhool gayi thi ki meri Di apni Mannu ke liye jo kehti hai woh karke dikhaati hai...

Bhool gayi thi ki meri inhi aankhon se saamne unhone kaha tha ki Meri dor unke haath mein... aur mere liye woh Yamraaj se bhi lad sakti hain... Kar li na ladayi yamraaj ji se...or i should say Deal ki hai.. ek haath de ek haath le.. chutki de di aur mujhe wapis le liya... I am sure Yamraaj ji bhi meri pyari di ki pyari si baaton mein aa gaye honge aur mujhe de ke... uske baad chutki bhi wapis dene ka promise kar diya hoga:)

Kaun kehta hai Di ne bacha giraya hai?? Sab kehte hain.. Haina?? Par is this true? Main bhi yahi samajhti thi par no... Giraya is a wrong word...  giraya nahin Bachaya hai..woh bhi apne dono bachon ko

...  Yeh naya jeevan hai...meri ragon ko Ganga maiya se bhi pavitra khoon daud raha hai..Meri Di ka.. jo itnaaa pure hai..itna positive hai..shayad isi wajah se main Di ko aur ache se samajh paa rahi hun...

Court mein Di ne kaha tha  ki main unki ragon mein daudta khoon hun... aur aaj main bhi yeh baat keh sakti hun proud ke saath ki DI meri ragon mein daudta khoon hain... Aapne suna hoga -"The best and most beautiful things in life cannot be seen or touched, they must be felt".. and i am feeling same right now.. its Di"s blood running in me...Khoon ka Rishta Raha hai Humara... and its Official Now..

Once I asked her - Aap meri bhagwan ho? aur aaj ke baad yeh sawaal is zubaan pe kabhi nahin aayega coz she has already proved it... She IS my god... God cant be everywhere thats why she made Maa.. and My Maa is My Di.. Meri Angel :)

i have no word to say anything about this post...i feel like i'm reading a written update of an episode.jeemaan relation has no word to define but in this post i got everything magical of their relationship.

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i wish after all the drama cv's should give us an episode with full of jeemaan emotional scenes...only jeevika & maanvi for 30(20) min.i'm already dreaming about the episode where these dialogues are included.

really you mande my day with this awesome-fantastic post...its feels that today is monday & i'm watching ehmmbh...!!!👏

Edited by isha01 - 11 years ago

beautifully written post! loved it totally! jeevika is really her mother not her sister

Edited by nobo - 11 years ago

⭐️ kya bat Kya bat KYA Bat(mithunda style) 🤗

Koi samajh nahi paaya unhe.. aur yahan tak ki Main bhi unhe samajh nahin paayi... Unke tyaag ko paap ka naam de diya maine.. Jab Di ne kaha ki "For a mother, her child comes first; then come the rest. " main samajh hi nahin paayi iss baat ko... Par aaj chutki ko khone ke baad bhi jab di ko muskuraate huye dekhti hun toh samajh aata hai woh unhone mere liye kaha tha...Kuch time ke liye bhool gayi thi..selfish ho gayi thi apni behan ke liye yeh soch ke ki woh apna bacha kho ke khush nahin rahengi... ek pal ke liye bhool gayi thi woh Maa hai meri bhi ..main bhi bacha hun unka... Mujhe kho ke khush kya woh toh zinda bhi nahin reh paayengi...

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I typed a LONG reply but thanks to IF, its ALL GONE- POOF!!! How did I get all of that back?!!!! I honestly wanna cry now!!!! UGH!
Edited by Amii90 - 11 years ago

What an amazing definition of Maa Neha, I adored Jeevika-Manvi relation and i alwayzzz love yr posts on dem, love d wy u define der feelingz so beautifully, they amazes me, keep up the osam work⭐️

love dese lines - Mannu naam ki beemari unhe bachpan mein hi lag gayi thi... Mere cancer ka toh ilaaj mil gaya par di ki iss beemari ka ilaaj nahin hai iss dunia ke kisi bhi kone mein...👏

thnk u 4 writing dis Neha...

Neha Ji, now this is called a post and the kind that should be forwarded to KD!!!! I love how you never fail to show Manvi's perspective in your writing and even in this post, by incorporating Manvi's thoughts; you put an interesting spin to this well-articulated post! No one, besides Manvi, can really understand Jeevika and their depth of relationship; Manvi has LIVED that relationship with every second of her life, thus, no one can explain it the way Manvi could! Interesting to note how Jeevika's promises made at some point are slowly turning into reality; for her they were not just words & today she gave those words a whole new meaning!!  

This content was originally posted by: Neha.K.

 main pehle kehti thi ki bhale hi mujhe janam nahin diya par DI meri Maa hai..par ab toh main yeh proud se keh sakti hun ki mera punar janam hua hai aur woh janam mujhe meri Di ne diya hai...

And THIS IS IT! No more explanations or justifications needed as to what their relationship is! This was ONE argument that people used against Jeeman and now that has been answered in a way that no one would have imagined!!!

Bhool gayi thi ki meri inhi aankhon se saamne unhone kaha tha ki Meri dor unke haath mein...

This reminds me of their conversation when Manvi said, "Di, bas aap apne pyaar main se thodi katauti kar do na to sabh set hai" and Jeevika immediately refused doing so and said, "Main apne pyaar main se katuati nahi kar sakti, haan apne gusse main se try kar sakti hoon"! Can she get more specific than this? She rejected Manvi's proposal outright because even if she tries to cut down her love and concern for her, she won't be able to!! She is a mother whose duty is to love, to worry, and to keep track of each and every moment to ensure her kid is allright!

Kaun kehta hai Di ne bacha giraya hai?? Sab kehte hain.. Haina?? Par is this true? Main bhi yahi samajhti thi par no... Giraya is a wrong word...  giraya nahin Bachaya hai..woh bhi apne dono bachon ko..

I honestly hope that Manvi's reaction and her thought of mind is depicted similarly the way you have, yes she will have an initial setback knowing that she was lied to all this time but eventually she will understand- if Manvi can't understand, then who else? Otherwise it will kill Jeevika like anything; she cannot tolerate Manvi's anger or silent treatment, it would hurt her more than the fact she lost her baby!!!

Court mein Di ne kaha tha  ki main unki ragon mein daudta khoon hun... aur aaj main bhi yeh baat keh sakti hun proud ke saath ki DI meri ragon mein daudta khoon hain... Khoon ka Rishta Raha hai Humara... and its Official Now..

Few arguments used against Jeeman- (A) Jeevika is not Manvi's mother- Well now that she has given her birth- a new LIFE, she is more of a mother now than ever before! (B) Their OTT dialogues are impractical etc- Can it get more REAL than this? I know that their relationship does not need any proof or justifications, but if this doesn't answer people's questions, I don't know what can! 

Once I asked her - Aap meri bhagwan ho? aur aaj ke baad yeh sawaal is zubaan pe kabhi nahin aayega coz she has already proved it... She IS my god... God cant be everywhere thats why she made Maa.. and My Maa is My Di.. Meri Angel :)

If one can instill their belief in GOD knowing that he will take care of them no matter and that only GOD is that being that comes with guarantee of never leaving his loved ones stranded, their devotion will show its true colours at some point of the time before they even have to ask for her! Similarly, for Manvi, her Di is her GOD and she knows that Jeevika will stand with her through thick and thin without her having to ask for it; her belief assures her that she is not alone & that if anyone will stay true to her- that is only her sister- Jeevika! My limited set of vocabulary does not permit me to coin a term for them but I guess 'DIVINE' does it just about right!

And Last but not the least, THANK YOU for this wonderful post!!!! Gave me another reason to love Jeeman :)