Nobody wants to be on the receiving end of this word. Ever. Never wants to experience how one feels when someone you love leaves you lonely. When someone you trust, tears you in tatters. To be betrayed ...makes you feel like you were just not worth someone's effort...love...loyalty. A prized fool taken for a ride in the name of emotions or a worthless idiot living in a delusional paradise.
Don't know who is right or wrong..and honestly..today I don't want to think..dont want to be fair. Just want to feel. Just want to cry with Raj. The pain...the heart wrenching anguish...anger..aggression of a man who is practically jilted at the altar. It hurts like hell. And the way it all happened just rubbed salt in his wounds. Raj. What did he do to deserve this? Where did he go wrong? An innocent victim of wrong emotions and lost connections. He doesn't know which way to turn for comfort. All the stages. The shock of the truth...the initial numbness...the disbelief...the gradual realization...the anger...the aggression the bitterness...the dark engulfing pain. And a human being groping in an abyss of agony.
The problem when life gives you a raw deal...you turn to near and dear ones for comfort. But in Raj's case even that luxury is snatched. Even the comfort of friends is denied. Today he stands truly..totally ...terribly..alone. Losing love was not enough for this unfortunate man...having to loose friends was the final nail in the coffin. One blow was fatally injured...the last blow just killed him.
Again do not want to play the blame game...coz simply...life is not a game. Raj's pain is real. Why, what, when, how...are immaterial. Post mortems are conducted on corpses..other than the cause of death..they don't serve any purpose. Similarly...post analysis of events...don't serve any purpose either. At the max we learn some lessons...and they are not always right. Ask Kundra.
Putting my head on the back burner...just want to let my heart take over. And rarely does that happen that what we see on screen makes us forget our logical thought processes...and just makes us feel. The raw emotions scraping our souls. Thank you Raj. Just hoping time does its trick and one day you can look back and say ..what doesn't kill...makes us strong.
Edited by eveline - 11 years ago
