Ironies
13th March, 2013. Farewell at Royal Academy for the Batch of 2012-2013. A day made solely of ironies...solely for me, Keshav Desai.
It's ironical how I got my coveted Best Student trophy...on one of the worst days of my life.
There it is now, staring me in my face from its position on my table, gleaming in the moonlight coming in through the window, mocking me...on the darkest day of my life. So much happened in just a few hours...all of which turned my life upside down once again. Heh, and it was supposed to be my Fare-"well"...yeah, right. More like my Fare-"worst"...
It's ironical how my mind tells me that Ranveer deserved each and everything that I said to him...yet my heart tells me that I have erred.
But no more. This time, I refuse to listen to my heart. This time I'll listen to my mind. I've had enough of listening to my heart...and anyway, all it ever got me was much more than my share of being misunderstood...and more troubles than I could handle...
It's ironical how the one person whom I want should trust me the most...was the one to doubt, suspect and then accuse me the first of all.
Kiya...Honestly? Is that what you think I am? A lowlife critter who can go to any bloody heights and cross all limits just for money? Do you really believe that I could spread a cheap MMS? Just for money? Who am I kidding...you never did trust me after all...
It's ironical how all of my good deeds...always only end up getting me misunderstood.
Saala, kabhi kabhi toh lagta hai...if this is what I'm always going to get for being good and honest...then I don't want to be good and honest! But no...these are values and morals given to me by my Baba...and I intend to follow them all my life...no matter what happens. If I deter from my path of truthfulness and honesty...it'll only give solid proof to Ranveer and Kiya of me actually being the kind of person they think I am. As if I'm going to give them such a chance...
It's ironical how I'm still mulling over my last day at my school...instead of looking forward to my first day at one of the best colleges.
Life isn't a bed of roses...and for a person like me...who has no influential background...who wasn't born with a silver spoon...it always was a struggle, is a struggle and will continue to be a struggle. But I'm ready. Ready to face any and every challenge that life throws at me. Not only will I face them, I'll overcome them too and come out on top...a winner. To be the best, I'll have to beat the best. And I will. Ranveer Shergill and Kiya Gujral...Wait. And. Watch.
Short, unsweet and absolute bullshit. This OS is basically a reflection of my own feelings...what I would have felt had I been in KD's place...I'm sure KD would agree with me though.
Well...as usual...I haven't read any other post...so I don't know what the general feeling towards yesterday's happenings are...but as usual...here i am with my own feelings and opinions...
And as always, I'm with KD. I felt like going over and giving a tight hug to that guy...not out of sympathy...but empathy...
Honestly, I'm not even angry at Ruby for being the bitch that she is. She did what she had to...but couldn't Kiya trust KD even 0.1%??!! I can't believe this happened...but for the first time..I got a feeling that Kiya doesn't deserve KD...
When Kiya when?? When will you ever trust him? When will you ever understand him to know that KD can never be such an immoral a------? When will you ever love him the way he deserves to be loved?
Yes, the circumstances were totally against KD...but isn't that was love and friendship truly is? Believing in your love/friend no matter what happens...no matter if you are the only one supporting him/her? Isn't 'trust' THE most important factor in any and every relationship? Seriously...if this is the kind of trust that people have in me...so frail...the kind to crumble under even the shadow of a misunderstanding...then I'd rather not be trusted at all!
As for what KD said...I didn't see anything wrong in it. No, I'm not saying this because I'm horribly biased towards KD...or because I think Ranveer is an insufferable prat...its just..I can understand KD's situation...
Being a fiercely independent person myself...I too would have reacted in a similar way...if not so brutally...Yes, I agree Ranveer's intentions were pure...and he genuinely wanted to help KD...but sneaking money like that...without letting KD know that he had put in money...no. I wouldn't agree to it. It is a mockery of KD's efforts. Why would he go to such lengths to make money...when he could simply have borrowed money from Ranveer? What Ranveer did...was charity...
And whatever amount of closeness that Ranveer and KD might have developed...it all sprang from a feeling of "School's ending..lets end it on a happy note...just for the sake of it."
*sigh* Thats it people. If anything I wrote in my OS...or my bakwass offended you...honestly...I don't care...but for the sake of etiquette and because you people don't deserve my unnecessary rudeness, I apologize. i had no intention whatsoever of hurting anyone's feelings. All of the above is solely my view.
As far as comments go...Please remember that this is an OS and not a post despite of my having added my feelings and opinions to it...so if you want to comment...comment on the OS...or if you agree with what I had to say...comment then. I don't want comments about how my views are wrong or whatever...this isn't a topic for a debate...and kindly refrain from turning it into one.
I'm being really rude today...and I'm genuinely sorry for it. I just had to get all of this out of my head. I have plans...lots and lots of plans for after-Boards...and I want to be able to carry them out...instead of letting my depressed feelings get in the way.
Err...is it just me...or is my post-ish part longer than my OS? :P
That felt good...leave a comment, people!
Indebted,
Mugs.
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