Chapter
5 - Burning
"Let her go
please" my mother's voice pleaded trying to fight me away from his grasp.
"Don't you dare"
he growled slapping her across her cheek, I struggled in his hold trying to get
away.
"Please...
please don't daddy" I cried as he dragged me from the room after kicking my
mother's stomach.
"Mommy.. mommyyy
help.. mommyyy"
"She won't be
able to f**king save you" he pushed into the bathroom that wasn't used by
anyone, it was cold and had no windows at all, he closed the door and locked it
from outside.
I rushed to the
door and slapped on the door. "Daddy no.. please noo" I slapped it over and
over again afraid of the dark.
"Daddy please...
please daddy" my sobs growing louder, I could imagine someone just being there
as if coming to catch me. "Daddyyy"
"Shit.
Madhu wake up.. dammit wake up.. Madhu" I gasped trembling as I snapped out my
nightmare state, Tyler's hands clutching my upper arms as he shook me.
My
eyes widened as I simply stared at Tyler, my heart was beating so fast, I
didn't register my room, Tyler or anything because all I could see was that
man's face, the very man who was meant to love and protect me was my enemy, he
was my father, I still remember seeing my mother lying on the floor helpless
and me in the dark bathroom.
Since
the age of 6 I was tortured and beaten up by him, I never knew the reason until
a few years ago when my mother passed away.
He
did everything to humiliate in the worst possible ways and he always succeeded,
he took away my childhood, he ruined my mother's life but then in a way it was
her fault he hated me.
"Madhu"
Tyler shook me breaking me away from my past, I looked at him unable to say
anything, my breath was caught in my throat, my entire body was trembling the
same way I had in the dark bathroom.
"babe
I'm here" he assured me rubbing my arms.
I
shook my head. "I feel he's here Tyler. I can almost feel him" I whispered, he
gathered me into his arms enveloping me with his warmth.
"He
won't be able to hurt you" he whispered stroking my hair soothing me. "Babe you
need to see a doctor about this. Your nightmares are growing, tonight you'd
seen it twice" he informed me softly and I knew I had to, but I was scared of
being judged. Would the doctor think it's my fault?
"I'll
go with you if you want" he told me rubbing my back.
"I...
I don't know" I replied, my mind was still stuck in that night unable to
process anything else into my head.
"Monday
morning, I'll set an appointment ok?" he pulled me out cupping my cheek.
I
swallowed hard getting rid of the lump in my throat and shook my head. "I..
I've got work" I reminded him of my first day.
"I'll
set it for the evening" he responded, I only nodded accepting whatever he said.
"Do
you want to sleep for some time?" he asked me after a moment.
"I
won't be able to sleep. I need the bathroom" I stepped down his bed and headed
into the bathroom leaving the door open. I splashed water over my face and
looked at my reflection in the mirror. My face pale, my eyes swollen, and my
cheeks were all pink due to all my crying; I looked a mess.
This
is what he made me. I was torn apart, broken and fought to live every single
day. He wanted me to live the life of hell but I wanted to fight it.
"You're dirty
blood so I'm washing it away" he laughed as he pushed me under the shower and
turned the water on, my body wracked with sobs, my mother wasn't here.
"Please...
please stop" I begged, the water grew hot almost burning me, I fought to leave
but he slammed the shower door closed.
"Daddy please" I
screamed as it dawned on me he'd raised the temperature. I tried to back away
but the shower head was such that the hot water sprayed on me despite curling
into the corner.
I jumped in the
shower trying to get away from the water burning into my skin, I screamed
begging him to let me out but he laughed. Laughed at my plight. He enjoyed it,
it was if he was getting some sick pleasure from torturing me like this. I
wondered why he hated me? I'd tried to be good, I always was because I was
afraid to get hurt by him but he still continued to hurt me.
"Madhu
you ok?" I snapped out of my memories and turned my head to the door as Tyler
called.
"I..
I'm fine" I mumbled back trying to gather myself. He wanted to break me and
he'd done it but I couldn't let him win. I shook my head shaking off the
memories but its always going to be there. These memories will always be there
to burn me, they'd be burning in my head always reminding me I wasn't a good
enough daughter to be loved so I didn't deserve to be loved.
Rishabh
I
woke up with a start and looked around me, my chest heaved as the memories came
swaying back to remind me then jolted away with a blink of an eye. I rubbed my
face stepping down and walked towards the doors, opening my balcony doors I
stepped out onto the cool cherry wood flooring of the balcony and let the blast
of cool air hit me, my skin grew cold and a shiver ran down my spine.
I
traced my tattoo with my finger and let the memories burn me, it reminded me of
the life I had before the incident and the life I was living now.
I
needed a drink, I turned and walked over to bar, pouring myself a shot of
whisky I gulped it down letting it burn my throat. She will always be there to
haunt me. Her memories will continue to haunt me and I wanted it to because I
deserved it. I deserved this pain.
I
closed my eyes for a moment as her face appeared before me for a moment, unable
to hold her image in my mind I snapped my eyes open. The burden of guilt grew
heavier for me as I thought of her. I destroyed her and I couldn't even turn
back the clock.
I
walked down in need to tire myself and headed to the gym. Over the years I took
out my frustration in other ways, before I'd taken it out on my Dadima and
sister but they didn't deserve it. It was my fault and they were bearing the
brunt of my own fault.
I
pulled on my gloves and positioned myself before the punching bag, adding a
slight pressure on my toes as my weight stressed on the ball of my feet I
lurched forward and slammed a punch from my left making the bag swing, then hit
it harder with my right making it swing harder, I continued to box, sweat
trickled down my temple, my hair was wet, my body was slick with sweat, I
didn't know how long I'd been boxing. I wanted to burn these memories away but
I deserved the pain that came. These memories will continue to burn me always
and it was my fault.
Madhu
"Do
I look alright?" I turned around showing Tyler. The weekend passed quickly with
me and Tyler at his Nan's place. His grandmother in other words. We'd always
gone to Elisa's or Elly for me, she was in her early 50s however was as
energetic as us. She'd give us a run for our money with her energy. I loved her
to bits just as I loved Tyler, she was one woman who I absolutely adored. She
had helped me when I was in need, Tyler had taken me with him to meet her and I
had it engraved within me she'll hate me as well but the woman was warm and so
loving towards me I couldn't help but love her back.
"You
look good honey. I'm sure your boss will salivating because dammit right now I
am" he replied winking.
"Tyler"
I shook my head laughing.
He
tugged my hand pulling me and wrapping his arms around me. "We should totally
get together"
"Yeah
sure. Two f**k ups go so well together. Our kids will be worse" I laughed
smacked his shoulder.
"Hey
at least it will stay in the family" he winked.
I
picked his toast and bit into it. "Now if you would lemme go, I need to finish
getting dressed" I responded chewing and offered his toast to him.
He
took the last bit of it into his mouth shaking his head. "Can't let you go" he
whispered.
"Honey
bye" I pushed his chest freeing myself and turned to the mirror. "I look fine
right?" I turned to him brushing my hands over myself so the clothes were crisp
and clean.
"You
honestly look hot. You're going to kill it for sure"
"I
want to look professional not hot and all ready to seduce"
"Had
I been your boss and I'd prefer you seducing me"
"Whatever.
And I definitely will not be going anywhere with this crap" I replied. "I can't
have a relationship with my boss. Its going to be messy situation, I dated
Andrew for a week and look where it had gotten me, lost my own job. He's fine
but me? I didn't have a damn job for months" I continued but at the back of my
mind I wondered how long will I be able to avoid him for? There was something
that drew me to him like no one else but I was going to deny my feelings, I
cannot and will not get involved.
He
nodded understanding. "I've spoken to Ana and she has said you can go and see
her anytime from 5 - 7 pm"
I
nodded. "I'll head out after work then. Will you come with me?" I asked him, I
didn't want to be alone, I needed him to be with me, Tyler was my back bone, he
was the reason I was fighting my memories, if he hadn't helped me I would've
been lying dead somewhere.
"Sure.
Just call me when you're a street away from her clinic and I'll meet you there.
Her clinic is near to Billy's"
"Alright.
I need to finish getting dressed then head off" I walked back to my room.
Rishabh
Damn!
I just realized Madhu was starting today, Friday night came back to me, that
kiss replayed in my head, the way her lips moved under my own, the softness,
her taste, her fragrance, the warmth of her skin everything came back to me.
Shit. This attraction is worse than I'd thought. What was it about her that drew me so much?
Yeah she was hot as hell, her body was damn sexy, she had a beautiful figure,
her smile was as beautiful but what drew me most was her eyes. There was
something in her eyes which made me curious, made me want to know about her.
"f**k"
I brushed my fingers through my hair tugging gently. I need to get a hold of
myself. This attraction, Madhu, having her, this isn't and wouldn't be
possible. I was going to have it drilled in me to deny this very attraction,
bury it within me.
Would
we both be able to deny this? May be if I hadn't gone and kissed her, she'd
given an innocent peck and I just had to and kiss her right? I cursed myself
for it over the weekend because her kiss was freshly burning in my mind. It's
the only memory in my head which actually was like a breath of fresh of air
considering with the painful memories stored up.
My
fingers itched to see her name, I
unbuttoned the first two buttons and looked at her name which instantly reminded me of my past. Seeing this made
me determined to deny Madhu, I didn't want to hurt her just as I'd hurt her. I was going to keep my distance, an
advantage for me was Madhu didn't work under me, she didn't work in my
department, and a disadvantage was she was going to be working on the same
floor so we might bump into each other. But then I'm sure and indomitable to
keep away from mingling our professional lives with personal lives.
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Hope you liked the chapters.
Will continue after I see how many are interested in it, because there isn't really any point in continuing if only one person is interested. 😆
Tyler and Madhu aren't in any ways romantically linked, they're best friends, you'll learn more of their friendship as the story moves along.
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