That day in the school went alright but that stupid feeling didn't go away. The good thing was that Misha understood that something was wrong with me, though I didn't tell her anything and so she kept cracking jokes for making me laugh. She has a really good sense of humour unlike me.
I went home and threw my bag on one side of the room and laid down on the bed without even changing my uniform. What was wrong with me? I couldn't understand. There was just this continuos hollow feeling like everything is against me and I'm so lonely with only one place left for me, emptiness.
"Ahhh, this stupid power cut, how long would it take?"
"Hey Aimy, chill and listen to this song"
He played the song on his mobile and the four of us went into some dreamland. It was such a touchy song that me, Aimy didi and Vish dii even cried though we didn't had any reason to.
I played the song on my iPod and plugged in my ear phones with full volume. I felt someone knocking on my door but I was least bothered. All that mattered for me was the lyrics and how truly they fitted my life now. Back then I cried because I just found the lyrics touchy and I was a typical sensitive girl but today I cried because the lyrics, the beat actually suited my own situation.
Oh! Love of mine
With a song and a wine
You're harsh and divine
Like truth and a lie
But the tale ends not here
I've nothing to fear
For my love is yellow forgiving & hollow
And the bright emptiness
In a room full of heads
Is the cruel mistress... wo ho..
Ignorance, forgetting, distances, out of all of these things, nothing was my mistake and I was facing all of it alone. I cursed myself for being so much sensitive.
I feel this unrest
That nests a hollowness
For I have no where to go
And I am cold
And I feel so lonely yea..
There's a better place then this, emptiness
And I'm so lonely yea...
There's a better place then this emptiness...!!
After the crucial 8 months, I was finally happy and satisfied that at least he was coming, my brother. I thought when he will be here then no one would ever dare to point a finger towards me but what did I get in return? He didn't even notice the pain I was going through. May be he was just too busy in his new relationships and new life. So yeah finally I started to understand what was exactly bothering me since the last few days. I got up from my bed and went for a shower in order to get my mind clear so I could think what I have to do next.