"10 seconds- It was all it took to
bring back all the memories of past
10 years that i had decided to bury
deep into the ocean of my thoughts.
Its funny how we run from
something for so long and create
illusion that we are doing well and
how just few seconds are enough to
break that illusion.
It all goes back to my college days.
Like most of other dudes and chicks
of my age i was a couple. It was the
time when i believed i could do
anything. Life was going pretty
smoothly. Its sweet that when you
are with the right partner every
problem seems nothing to you. She
was the one. We had decided our
future. We were ready for any and
everything.
Those small glares, thosenaughty things
we did were part of my life. such was our
bond that we never knew what was waiting
ahead for us.
It was the last day of college. All
the emotions were high. everyone's
eyes were moist. I met with all my
friends. Now i went towards her and we
had our moment.
We promised that we will be in
touch and will meet after 1 year.
Then we got separated to other
cities but long distance relationship
was on. And believe it or not it
sucks. Anyways that one year passed
away like swift wind.
Now it was time for me to meet her
and that was the moment i felt
strongly that i love her. I had lots to
say. It was like my feelings were
amplified. All those college years
and all those times we spent
together were revolving around my
mind. I didnt know when i came out
of thoughts but when i came she
was still not there to meet me
where we have decided. I waited
but she was no where. I got
concerned and called her but that
was when i had mini heart attack
when it said that cell no i have
dialled is out of service.
I knew something was not right. I
waited there whole time but she
didnt come. She never contacted
me.
All those sweet moments now felt
like needles kissing my heart. All
feelings were covered under the
anger now. Thats when i decided i
will never remember her.
But destiny had other plans i guess
After 10 years i saw her today and i
came to know instantly that how
illusional i was. All those feelings
were now resurfaced.
10 secs was
what it all took. I had lots of
questions in my mind. There was lot
of anger. I went towards her but
I was scared that she might listen
my heartbeat. My heart was
pounding like a time bomb. I put
my hand on her arm. She turned
gazed and got freezed.
But before i could say anything all
that anger just vanished somewhere
after seeing her smile and tears. But
wait something was not right with
her. And thats when i got the whole
story and shock of my life.
She told me that The day she was coming to meet me
shehad an accident and lost her left
leg. She thought i would not accept
her or maybe i didn't deserve a
handicapped and that's why she
didn't contact ever. It was big
because it meant she loved me and
still do. Such a fool. I was
handicapped by being away from
her and it would never have
mattered to me. I told her
everything and told her that even if
her body would have paralyzed i
would still love her till her last
breath.
I got lucky. I dont know how. But i
should have tried more to contact.
Who knows if i hadn't let my ego
come between I
Would have not lost 10 years.
So i learnt that if something is
worth keeping we should never give
up.
But i didn't tell her one big thing
because i couldn't hurt her. How
could i after seeing her after so
many years in such situation. I dont know
maybe God got angry or what but i
got diagnozed with cancer couple of months before.
But i would keep her happy for as
long as i am alive. I promise to
myself.
And that's when i realised no matter
how much we plan everything
happens as it is planned by God.
But i would like her to be happy
when i sm not thrre. I want her to
get whatever she wants if she is
reading my diary as these could be
my last words i dont know "
Tears rolled down the cheeks of the
girl when she read ther diary of her
lover. But she wiped it off. As she
wanted to fulfill his last wishes i.e.
to be happy.
Such was the crisis that Ego and circumstances never allowed
them to be together.
ANd the guy always kept wondering:
Hopefully this wont last,
Hopefully I'll understand the past,
Maybe some day I'll see,
What you wanted me to be.
For a moment I had her,
But now there's the world to fear,
It's gonna be so hard,
I just need to play the right card.
Or maybe I should quit chasing stars,
And focus more on my sports cars.
I have my own life you know,
And it really isnt low.
Today may be over,
but my tomorrow
will never come.
love gained,
love lost,
but either way it ends in pain.
this clock keeps ticking,
moving time
forward,
while these chains hold me
captive.
creeping toward this corner,
leaving behind my thoughts,
I sit and
stair at these locks.
missing all I had
with nothin to gain,
there's really
nothing I can do but play the game.
Hopefully this wont last,
Hopefully i will understand the past..
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